This life and this world seem to test my very faith in simply being. As a writer I can't help but express myself deeply and fully when inspired. My inspiration had left me for a time, and that troubles me. I can only hope that this universe has some beautiful things in store for me rather than the trouble and evil I have had to endure these past few years. The web of this life is becoming tangled and torn. I am not able to balance myself on the safe part of my web, as an intruder has decided to destroy my very creation. She distorts truth and therefore rules the thinking of those close to me. Time is also running out as my journey is half done. Perhaps I must journey through the darkness before I am able to live in the light again?
The prospect of maybe not coming out of the darkness however, is becoming more and more relevant and frightening. Still, in the beat of my heart and in the blue of his periwinkle eyes there seems to be hope. That perhaps he waits for me there where I am destined to be. The Other World for him and for me!
Life is quite an adventure and comes with a number of ups and downs! I have recently decided to write a long awaited manuscript and have reached Chapter 9. It all seems to be unfolding the way it should and I feel good about it. I must say though that I am becoming confused about the publishing process. I am of course writing about faeries, dark faeries and royal faeries, it is my own FANTASTICAL BIOGRAPHY that I believe every woman that has a soul with an imagination could relate to. I am not sure where to begin my quest for an agent to help me publish my book, and this is what is concerning me. I purchased 2 books on how to do it and what to say to these individuals, but feel that the bottom line is that no one wants to take a risk on a new author/writer. A shame really because how does one know anything unless they give it a chance? I am looking to put my footprint on the world somehow with my life, my ideas, and my dreams. I would like to add to this place we live and help bring back some of the magic that has been lost for so long. I know that one is able to "self-publish" but have heard not so good things about the process. I have also heard about ebooks, but this is not my goal. So, if there is anyone out there that has a remote interest in this blog I would love to speak to you, perhaps we can both come up with an answer. The Faery Realm is just a breathe away from us, and I believe with all my heart that the growing facination of this realm and the reality of it could do nothing but enrich our lives!
As I sit on the cusp of summer, I ponder what the season will bring. I am hopeful that I may see better things in my life. I am hopeful that I may encounter more individuals such as myself. "One of the deepest longings of the human soul is the longing to be seen" as I truly am. "When passion awakens, your soul becomes young and free and dances again!"