It's been a long while since I've been here, but here I still am. I have been going through some major changes in my life, including changing my whole life around from where it was going. I had this direction, but I decided to take another route. I'm not sure if it messed up my plan completely, but I feel more like myself now than I have in long time. I'm still sad that I had to move back, because I feel like going backwards. But I'm not sure. Maybe there are no directions at all. Maybe any step we take is a step in the right direction, even though it would feel like going backwards...And I miss my friends and all the experiences I had and the feeling of being somewhere different. Now I'm home, but I don't think I belong here for real. I don't even know if this makes sense. But I definitely think this was a good step. A step. Towards finding myself. Again. How deep is this, lol.

I don't know. I haven't been able to draw in ages since all this moving around, and my inspiration is riding high so I feel really frustrated on art side. But with any luck I would be able to work again.So maybe this sort of explains my disappearance. I'm trying to be back a bit more but we'll have to see what happens.

Hugs for everyone.

I tend to be very hard on myself about my art. I always feel like nothing I do is good enough, even though a lot of people think it would be really nice. I think it's probably about lack of inspiration, or self esteem, or some personal style... I've got so many styles I work in and like working in, but I sometimes think that it's keeping me from developing further. I like working in different styles, but sometimes I just wish I could do what I want to do, and not just try to get where I want to... But suppose that has something to do with patience as well. I mean, how do you know when you're happy with yourself? Do you ever reach that point when you think 'this is good enough, I am proud of my work and I don't have to worry and practice?' I probably never will. I suppose as an artist you can't stop developing and practicing... I just wish I had more patience to practice. Work on things I want to, and push myself even further, take risks! I'd love to be able to step back from a piece of work and think "wow, that really is amazing!" but I rarely do...

Sorry, this was just a bit of a rant, I must be going through an artistic block or something. I don't seem to have energy to draw nice images, I've got too many things on my mind... Sadly.

I have finally managed to open the webstie... oh dear. Took a while to get it working. Still needs some bits but otherwise should be alright. Well, for now anyway.

 Xxx

Hmm my website is getting a complete do-over. It's going to take a lot of time, I still need to learn more html to make it work properly, and java and stuff, but maybe it will get there eventually... Posted finally a few images too, will post a bit more when I get the chance and find images that I think are good enough. I get so picky sometimes :P

Heh, this is me, I'm here. I kinda like it, but I need to browse around a bit before I can start feeling at home :D