I was a lonely child. I can remember having friends, but never many. I was not the popular or pretty girl. I was the shy and introverted child -- the loner who found more solace in magick of nature that surrounded me and embraced me, but I knew even then as a child that I wanted to be an artist. It was my destiny and I vowed that it would be a destiny I would fulfill. I've always known who I am from the earliest of ages, but I lost that knowledge for a ways when 'society' began to dictate who I should be. I should not be an artist. I should not be a pagan. I should not be independant and strong-willed. I should not be a creature of emotions, empathy, and instinct. I should not believe in fairies and dragons and magick. I should not listen to my dreams.
The 'should nots' held me a prisoner to doubt and depression for over 18 years. I existed in a world were magick was forgotten, and dreams of destiny and a childhood vow were but a distant memory. Instead, I became a mother and wife -- loved and cherished, but empty of all passion and hope. I had no goals and no dreams. My sleep was that of endless dark with no interruptions, no mystery, no questions.
Until the memory of a childhood vow resurfaced ...
Movies:eragon, lord of the rings, dragonheart, labrynth, dark crystal, dungeons and dragons, mists of avalon, willow, brotherhood of the wolf, amelie, ever after, star wars, underground, ladyhawke, narnia, memoirs of a geisha, crouching tiger hidden dragon, hero, house of flying daggers, pan's labrynth, tales of earthsea, howl's moving castle, spirited away, davinci code
TV:stargate, stargate atlantis, battlestar galactica, surface, andromeda, star trek NG, Voyager, x-files, lost, xena, hercules, sea of souls, medium, 4400, dead zone
Books:wheel of time, the belgariad, chronicles of thomas covenant, lord of the rings, the heritage of shannara, magician, Silverthorn, a darkness at sethanon, mists of avalon, anything by tad williams, anything by melanie rawn, anything by traci harding, anything by sara douglass, sabrial
Likes:art, painting, writing, crystals, dragons, music, laughing, my children, my partner, my friends
Dislikes:ignorance, rudeness, discourtesy, dishonesty, those who focus too much on money, organised religion,
Vices:arrogance when angered, chocolate biscuits, creamy sauces
"She is the cat's mother," my mother would say whenever I used 'She'
instead of the name of whomever I was discussing with her at the time.
Tis something my grandmother used to admonish me for too, but in this
circumstance, I have no idea what her name is. What is God's name? Can you tell me?
I
was initially going to title this painting 'God' and see what sort of
reaction I got. I'm feeling a little mischevious at the moment, and why
not, when in this situation, God is whom I have drawn. The fact that I
have depicted God as a woman is irrelevant. In this circumstance, She
is the Creator. She is God, the Goddess, and She is All.
But
that's awfully 'big' of me, and I'm not really thinking on a large
scale. Instead of titling the picture 'God' I decided to instead thumb
my nose at my mother and my grandmother who always used to love chiding
me. So, she is 'She' and the next time my mother tells me that She is
the cat's mother, I can say, "Yes, I know. She is mother of us all."
*winks*
Title: She Size: 8.5"x11" Medium: Graphite
And yes ... I will be doing a coloured version *smiles* ... this one is being used for my 'goddess' title page.
Queen
of Hearts has been listed for auction. There is a minimum bid of
$140.00 and a 'Buy it Now' option of $175.00. The artwork in question
will be published in 'Dreams of Magick' -- my coming book -- which will
be released late 2008, early 2009.
Well, the wee coloured version of my graphite 'Starborn' did not make it to auction. It sold within a few hours of my posting the coloured version in my journal. It's a pretty wee thing, and I am once again reminded just how much I love painting miniatures. ACEOs and OSWOAs are fun. They allow me to work quickly and that in turn allows my muse to flit from idea to idea like a bee from one flower to the next.
As I've probably mentioned in other posts, I've been working on a series of small graphite works for the book's title pages. For some reason, I totally forgot to do one for the fairy page, so decided I must remedy that fact. So I sat down and did this one ...
Title: Queen of Hearts Size: 5.5"x8.5" Medium: Graphite
And because Starborn sold, I decided I had better replace that picca and so did a coloured version which I will be auctioning off, unless she too sells before I can do so.
I
must stop painting these little beauties in a manner that makes me want
to keep them all to myself. I wanted to keep Starborn and I want to keep this one even more. I don't usually like cute, but I must
confess that I adore this painting. The colours are perfect. The gold
bits have all been done in metallics, which of course never scan well.
The whole painting has this delightful medieval air to it, and I
believe that the fact that the image above is actually larger than the original is a testament to it's quality.
If she
does not go to a private buyer in the next 48 hours, 'Queen of Hearts' will be
auctioned on eBay with a first bid of $150.00, and a buy it now of
$175.00. There's just too much detail in this miniature artwork to have
it sell for anything less. *grins* I'm only too happy to keep her with
me while I wait for the right person to come along. So for those who
are thinking that they might snag a bargain by waiting for me to
auction it, then I regretfully suggest that you think again. You might
find that you get a better price if you don't wait. And if she does not sell at auction, then so be it. I know she will sell eventually, and I can be patient.
I know
*cheeky grin* I'm a spoilsport, but I refuse to fall into the eBay trap
and auction my work off for a small fraction of what it's worth.
The
full title of this painting is 'Starborn - Portrait of a Dragonkin' and
it came to be after I felt a need to revisit a concept and composition
that is like a comfortable pair of shoes. I have used the same
composition for 'The Lady' and 'The Trickster' -- two paintings that
represented the start of my love and desire to do a tarot deck that
explored the concept that we all carry the essence of dragons within
us, and that dragons are akin to angels.
Little did I know at
the time that my love for dragonkin would develope into such a grand
passion. I love dragons, I adore dragonkin, I love doing any subject
that weaves the essence of dragon into it. To me, dragons are magick,
the cosmos, and I that is why they will feature heavily in my tarot
deck.
This wee graphite, however, is not going to be a part of
the tarot deck, but is another illustration for my book and will grace
one of several title pages. I am also going to be doing a coloured
OSWOA version which will be placed for auction on eBay once completed.
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