I don't know how to make it all become one. From a imaginer to a practitioner. I spend so much time  wanting  and being anxious. I want to spend more time doing my drawings. But there are also so many things I want to do, so many realms I want to explore. How can I have my roots grow deeper anywhere. 

Luckily I have a beautiful house, beautiful landlady and a beautiful view outside the window to help me sustain. I'll learn it all somehow.