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    Having a little freak out about being interviewed!

    Monday, July 28, 2008, 11:32 AM AEST [General]

    Hi all,

    I am having a little freak out. The scary type...The bulletin which is a newspaper in
    Australia is comming to do an interview on me at the end of August.

    The feature is in the Amazing homes section and the people who live in them. I have never considered my place to be an amazing home.

    Since my son passed on in 2005, I have just lived like a hermit I don't have visitors,
    my boyfriend is the only person I have really let come over. My main contact with the outside world is the internet my art lessons with kids who are a safe haven, I did go to an art opening earlier this year. But I have to wear a mask and pretend all is ok and I haven't really done much to the house or garden, and its 2 and half acres of it!
    You need to nuture a garden and I just haven't had the motivation to really lift a finger. It has
    been hard enough just to keep up with orders etc., Most of the time I have just been painting my way through this grief.

    I am thinking it is probably a good thing in a way as I will have to put it back and fix it pretty like it was before.

    Maybe the universe is forcing me pick myself up. I did some weeding yesterday, It is all a bit overwhelming. I am handling his loss a little better than before.

    I do think my garden is special. I started it 20 years ago. Mostly all from cuttings.
    I have a secret garden.. always loved that movie. Every plant in the garden flowers white. I did that
    I think because I live with so much colour inside the house as well as the art.
    The secret garden takes up about half an acre It is a huge circle with two archway entrances.
    I created that garden for my sons to get married in....one day.

    My house is 100 years old and even though I've lived there for a long time it is still not finished.I took all my stuff out of the studio and am painting in the house because it is just too cold at the moment to be down there. There is a fireplace but it is the open type and just uses too much wood. So my studio doesn't even look like a proper arty place at the moment.

    I have an orange lounge room and a purple/lavendar dining room. I think they are just going to
    think it's all too wierd. I know some people come in and think it is amazing and some other people come in and think it is a freaked out hippy home.

    One part of me wants to do it as the publicity as it would be fantastic, the other part of me want to
    say no and just keep hiding a little longer. I don't know whether I can motivate myself to get it all together in time.




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    Huggs! Seems like my kind of place! I would love to see pictures!

    Ruby~V.
    July 28, 2008
    12:48 PM AEST

    Thanks If I decided to go ahead I'll post the pictures of what the paper does.

    Kylie InGold
    July 28, 2008
    01:18 PM AEST

    Hey Kylie,



    I'm sorry to hear of your son's passing and can only imagine how empty life is without him. Yet when I think of our universe, at how endless and infinite, I can only think how boundless our awareness is because of that. So I can't help but think that your son is aware and feeling for you, wanting you to enjoy life as fully as possible.



    To that I can only humbly encourage you: live life. For his enjoyment, for his happiness, and for the fulfillment he'll feel at experiencing it with you, whether you sense him or not.



    If nothing more, enjoy it on his behalf. :^)

    Tommy
    July 28, 2008
    01:26 PM AEST

    Hi Kylie

    When is the interview? I think you are right about the Universe wanting you to live. I can't even come close to knowing what you are feeling. But I do know a lot about shutting myself away from the world and putting on that "i'm ok" face for all to see. I also have a large garden that I take care of and it it a chore. But for me the work is a comfort. After it's all done, seeing my hard work and knowing all that come & dwell there are pleased, somehow makes it all ok. I would love to see pictures of your home, spruced up or not. I love the spirit of old buildings. Please let us know how you are & if you did the interview.

    Be safe

    Cyn

    Cyndee
    July 29, 2008
    08:30 AM AEST

    My dearest Kylie friend, this comes from my heart as always, goodness me, what a challenging choice... such an honour to be featured, such a lot of work if you want to be presented the way you see it all in your head, This I understand only too well *grin* I can maybe give you my experience of the past couple of years ~ So as to give a very special, very poorly young girl a couple of much needed holidays & treats, we opened up our home to not only her & her family but many faerie artists for some special enchanted gatherings & celebrations. This meant people visiting from overseas too, eeek, sleeping quite a few folk for a number of nights etc etc. I was deeply embarrassed as I'm not the best housekeeper & my large workload meant that that wasn't about to change. I am so happy that I was brave & just allowed the 'invasions' to happen as all I remember is the connection of like minded souls, laughter, happiness & fun =) No one seemed to notice the dustbunnies, old sheets & towels, the ancient tiles, peeling wallpaper, piles of books & stuff, leaking roofs with buckets everywhere (it's a very old cottage ;) and so on. Most folk commented that it felt 'lived in' & could therefore relax! I realise that your situation is very different, but I think that You & your wonders will shine through & folk will love it. Equally, I am sure that if you asked the newspaper for more time & maybe a later slot if you are emotionally not up to it yet, then they may just be open to that, fingers crossed. Please don't do too much or push yourself too far, but if there is a little part of you that thinks you may regret turning it down... then maybe this is the time to go for it. As for your garden, we also have had to let ours go these past few years due to running our own business. At first I despaired as I'd worked so hard for years to keep it pretty, But, since letting it run wild - we now have wildlife visiting that never ventured here before because the high grass seems to make them feel safer, we have deer here each day & I know the mama would never have brought her baby twins right up to our door if there wasn't the 'cover', yay! The Barn owl hunts in full view & there have been new butterflies because of the wildflowers, nettles, thistles & grasses - I could go on about this for hours, sorry, but I wanted to share the wonderful liberation that this has brought me. I would now have it no other way, it is a joy to behold & no work whatsoever... just a thought.

    My heart goes out to you my lovely & I am honoured that you have been so open here, you are the one who will know when you are ready for all the opportunities opening up to you now, I think Dear Tommy put it better than I ever could. So please don't feel any more pressure than you are able to deal with, whatever decision you make will be right for you at this moment, take your time, breathe deeply & be kind to yourself, I wish this for you dear lady, & that I was nearer so I could come help & support in a practical way. I'm sure your home is beautiful & I hope for one of your gorgeous rainbows to bless it again soon. Take care of precious you, I send you my love always,

    Be
    July 31, 2008
    01:07 AM AEST
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