Well, today has not been a good day at all. The week started with me looking forward to our holiday in Cornwall next week, which we are supposed to be going to on Tuesday 7th July. Have so been looking forward to it, not had one in ages, it will be our first (and last!!) proper couple holiday before baby comes along.

Then I got what I thought was a cold. Was relieved to think it would be over by the holiday. But now things not looking so hopeful. Turns out I probably have flu, and because of the measures in place with swine flu at the moment, I have been prescribed immediate antivirals because of being pregnant (i.e. high risk). Without even being seen by a doctor! Only by describing symptoms over the phone to him.

So am now worrying about which is worse, taking drugs that haven't been tested on pregnant women that could harm baby or risk getting sicker and possibly harming baby more. Am wheezing terribly and have awful pains in my left thigh so have taken first dose, reluctantly!

So am lying here dreaming of being well enough to get to Faerystone Cottage in St Ives next week, and the Avalon in Tintagel the week after... magical restorative air for me and baby!

Would appreciate some positive thoughts right now. Sorry to moan, it's not like me. Just feel worried and down at the mo!

Hugs to all,

LouLouBelle xxx