html_removed html_removed html_removed html_removed

Every sip of old bushmills

Takes me back to 03-05

Where I fell into her sorrow

And barely came out alive

In Kentucky, in Ohio

I fell in love with the land

But my heart had no place to go

Thoughts of suicide to end the pain

Of a soul so lost

Driven insane

 

Jack and Jim, my only friends

One from Kentucky

One from Tennessee

But in the end

I knew they were never gonna help me

Another year rolled away

And the angels came to help me out

Saying I’ve got to fight to live

That I wasn’t over yet

I had more to give

 

I breathed in the Stockholm air

With my brothers in 07

A chance to prove something to myself

My doomsday clock stuck at eleven

 

I missed someone through the streets of Copenhagen

Knew it was just a waste of time

But the night was full of sin and hate

To be honest, I could never tell

If a knife wound would be my fate

 

Through Amsterdam to Berlin

I knew I was blessed to see it all

The sorrow fading within

Still, I missed someone

 

Stumbled through Prague alone

Hungry, I had lost my way

And to be honest, it felt good to be alone anyway

Vienna was beautiful, so was Budapest

Living like this put me to the test

Sleepless train journeys and parties

Until the dawn came around

Good times with the brothers

Who I can only appreciate now

 

My heart was almost broken

By things I’ll never talk about

And no one can party much

With a heart ripped out

 

I felt the earth alive below my feet

In the dusty Athens soil

And I never spoke a word

I felt love for something or someone

I was higher than a bird

 

It’s hard to forgive yourself

For all the things you’ve done

Even though you know there’s good reasons

And circumstances change

Sometimes quicker than the seasons

I wrote a lot of stuff in Berlin

About all this hiding within

I was up all night with a coffee or two at hand

Waiting for a plane home

Back to sleepy Ireland

Home was in the arms of a girl

That would never belong to me

But Ireland you’re still a babe

And I love you still

You’ve just lost a lot

The things that kept you tranquil

 

There’s a guilt that lingers

When you see places

That no one else can

It’s hard to explain

But they’ve never see how close to the edge I was

So maybe they can’t complain

 

I was trying to find my way

Just like anyone

Florida to Carolina

Under the summer sun

I was getting stronger

With trying testing times

Until the Nashville city nights

Let me rest, some time to unwind

Tennessee a more a more beautiful place

Would be hard to find

 

God I hate nights now

I think about the girl I never have

When I should sleep to find the rest

To own the day

To do my best

I need someone to think about

To ease the hours of the nothingness of the night

By James Battersby

July 08