For a full year now or even more, or actually it was shortly after i became 26 the February before last i've been plagued by horrible dreams. They all involve a grey darkness like looking at a room and it suddenly starts to blur and spin around like you were stirring soup...that kind of rotation. Sometimes in the dreams i would look at my skin fade away like ashes or grey dust and i would become part of the blurry whirlpool. I would see myself fading into my death. Other times i would see myself crawling over my paintings blindly in the dark. There is always a horrible evil presence as i've often felt myself being swung around the room as i slept( i probably wouldn't even be surprised if someone were to witness this at the same time i was sleeping ). I've had the feeling of being choked, tramped on etc.

As a child and being bullied at school a lot i'd dream frequently of being in fights. I would always lose. But as the years went on, ten or more years, in dreams i am strong enough to win the fights i dream about. But not this one. It seems like i am not fighting a person but a shadow instead. I would go as far as to say it may be a demon even. It is something unworldly(which may have lived rightfully on earth once, even as a human).

After coming back from the rock festival(download in donington park), on the first night back (last night), i dreamed the nightmare again, but this time it was even more powerful and terrible. Sometimes in the nightmare i can break free by sheer will of force in order to wake up. Sometimes it takes many tries. you shout for help, but when you semi-wake you realize that the scream was just a whisper.
 
I have a feeling that negative energy attached itself far stronger to me at the concert through various reasons. The crowd was 75'000 or more and far too many of them were drunk and wrecking things and burning tents/exploding gas cannisters on the last night. It was a very dangerous time and you could sense the Nihilism in the air all around now that the festival was over, and people were still high on drugs and drink (not i). The fire fighters were out and so were the paramedics and the police. over the hills you could see fires in the distance...which were tents set on fire. People danced around the fires and would throw exploding things into the fires.
 
In the sky i saw three fires, likes stars it seemed at first, burning bright. The three fires just sat motionless in the sky like torches all firey. I couldn't understand what they were. I then saw another flaming object moving slowly towards the other three. It moved like it was controlled to go that direction on purpose. If it was not for all the fires and explosions on the ground, i would have thought it looked like the UFO's you see on documentaries. So the firey object moved towards the other three and then stopped without moving anymore. All four objects then hovered in the sky. They were not helicopters or anything like that. These things were hovering and on fire. The only thing i can think it was, was tents that the wind blew away, although it must have blown them up into the sky until they soared above and out of reach of the wind. It was a strange sight.

But coming home, i dreamt the same evil dream, but this time it was far stronger. I saw the room turn to grey and blurry, it began to spin and my soul seemed to turn around with it, only this time when it was spinning, it suddenly decided to go clockwise( the spin is always anti clockwise until this night), so it changed direction. I then felt a dark presence behind me. I was then raped by the ghost, but i tried to deal with the raping in order to just get some sleep and make it through the night. I then felt teethmarks in my skin, like a set of teeth clamping down . I knew this was really bad.....really bad when you can feel this going on. I was in a dream however, or at least a semi awake dream and i knew that this would just not make sense to anyone if i told them. (but i have to try). There was nothing in the room that was living except me.

Either i'm being spiritually harrassed or i'm losing my sanity. would could this mean?

James