This is a little more intimate post than any ive done here before because the subject may be a little touchy for some. After years of walking the gender fence. ive finally decided which way to fall. Im going to follow my heart and transition all the way to Female. Personally i think the better of the choices. i had allot of help on this By my fabulous Mistress Mistress Alexia Jordon and Mistress Cyan. Who when i told I was going to go all the way. said "Its really about time dont you think. " She pointed out more people know me by girl names and personae than they do by my boy name. besides i spend more time in dresses and heels than i do in jeans and a teeshirt. Every person i have met that has gotton to know the duoality that is me says sooner or later :I like you much better as girl." Or "Your the girliest Hetro man ive  ever met .

So this me getting out of my own way and taking the faerie path whereever it leads. truth is its so much easier to tap in the faerie glam when im dressed . than when im not and they seem to like me that way better. Unlike so many of transgender friends who have a horrible time in the human world When im dressed i sail through it and magical things swirl around me whereever i go.

Im already on hormones and im loving the feeling I tell you what ladies you have some great chemicals flowing through your system and you didnt have to slip south of border to get them .Everybody is blown away about how fast the changes are happening to me. My chest is swelling like i deployed a floatation device under my skin. and my face is changing. .Of course the emotional roller coaster that goes with that is no picinic. Im crying allot and am finding myself feeling more vulnarble and exposed. But at the same time the feelings of joy and happiness are likewise far more intense. Als where i could make  magic happen with allot of effort and concentration Now is so close and easy Im not sure whats possible or impossible anymore.

I chose to share this with my enchanted friends first. Despite the edgey subject. Because i thought that the faerie Realm might understand what im experienceing more easily than other circles im travelling in. Im still orchid Lament of course but now im becomming Orchid times ten . Thats soo thrilling for me. Let the Glamour shimmer and the faerie lights burn bright. Im comming home sisters!

carpe Noctum

Orchid Lament