Theres a job I might have a shot at at hubbies work thats a really nice customer service full time position and all that.

If it pays what we think it should (which of course is semi-dangerous guess work) and I hand over a majority of my paycheck, we'll be 100% debt free (Car, Cards, Loans) in a year. Thats really very, very tempting.  Sure, we will still have the mortgage to pay off .......

So! Where does that leave art, which obviously is my life dream here?  Well, to be honest about myself Im never really had a great track record at staying on a schedule and drawing everyday. I truly WANT to, but if Im staying at home it seems so easy to just let days drift by.

With my part time retail job (Which I did truly enjoy) I was so exhausted from the physical and up SUPEREARLY aspects that I didnt really have a great chance at doing art.  This job wont really have either aspect ....... 

I keep getting caught up in how art should somehow be selling, or popular for me to feel successful.  Even tho I wasnt really doing much formal art during my parttime job I didnt really ever feel that way. 

As a further development, my wonderful little brother will most likely be staying with us for a bit to go to school here. Which is GREAT! I love college (I really do) and Im honored to get to help teach him all the study skills I learned in college.  Also, I want to learn vicariously ^_^

So, Im really tempted to get this job and get us out of debt.  We go from 'about two years or more' to 'a year or less' in debt - and Ill have spending money on top of that.  If I can SOMEHOW MANAGE to get in a artistic cycle in that - doing Daily Sketches, some paintings, some ACEOs maybe .... not sure ... whatever it is its not a guarantee Ill do it either way.  At least with a job I wont have to continue to worry about making no sales and running low on money.

And frankly I always FEEL better when I have a job.  I was reading Ellen Million's post about how they really loved having a job outside of the 'art business' as it made the whole OMG MAKING MONEY OR NOT!!!!11!!! equation not even really matter.

Especially coming on the heels of having basically zero (no wait, actually zero) sales on Etsy, a lackluster convention, and looking at just one more con and then almost half a year with no real cons that I know I can rock?  Eeeeep! I know everyones sales are down, I know commissions arent selling as well - and frankly as much as I really want to work on skills and be  all I can be -- if its all for free and for the crickets?  Thats flustering for sure! 

So this little Starry is going to be terribly brave and apply for a job on Monday.  If I dont get it, I wasnt meant to have it. If I do, it was! Still, next week is a serious art week anyway! Id really like to get on that artistic cycle right away! <3