my good friend has turned to the dark side. well, not really, but close enough. you see, she and i lost touch a bit after i moved to the city and started school full time. she's still in our home town, hanging out with anyone who does or can get drugs.

it was her birthday this weekend so i decided to hang with her

we went to 2 parties that wern't her own.. and the second one, there were people just laying there on the couch, completely unresponsive. through conversations overheard, i learned that they were all smacked out.

i hope the best for her, but i think she's headed for a low point in her life.

and i can do nothing about it.

xoxo

this is why i wish i were a fairy.

fairies can fly away from their problems.

fairies are so small that they have no pressure to feel "significant" in the world- they already know they arn't.

fairies have constant access to fairy dust *smile*

oh c'mon im sure it would be good for cooking

fairies are always happy, never have to worry about or search for love.

fairies are pretty much gender neutral unless i totally just made that up...

fairies get around.. lucky lil buggars.. and it's not frowed upon

fairies dont pay bills. go to school, dael with parents.. try to make friends. they have it MADE i tell you.

i wanna be a fairy.. a purple one with long black hair.. and i sit on lilypads looking at the moon.

xoxo

you are so close to going pug crazy!

i will upload TOO MANY pics of my pug dog- the love of my life

and you will randomly realize that you NEED a pug in your life.

that's right, after about.. 6 or 7 years of drinking, i am finally LEGAL

to drink that is

i still like to be a wee criminal

went to score's gentleman's club and drank and partied with some close friends. my girl kassie from the quad cities even came up

good times for all but very expensive.

been modling a bit, did a valentines day show where i danced with another lovely lady to music, got photogs to take our pics.. good times

wish we could upload more pics on this site.

havent had much time to post anythng.. been so busy with school and volunteering.. hanging out with friends and sleeping..

my life is so wacked out right now i dont feel like i have any control

the bettie page photoshoot is all completed. most of the shots are too revealing to be posted, but i am proud of them nonetheless. i love my photographer.. he's talented and really brings the best out in me.

tings are alright tho.

im almost 21... just counting down the days