TODAY SUCKED. literally. i took too many pain pills yesterday so i woke up super late today... at like 1:30 and i had to be home at 4 for dinner with my parents.. my mom's going to Israel for 2 weeks and it was her last day. so i got my tired **** up and made my way home through unnecessary traffic on a **** sunday. nehoo so i get home and realize that my mom has already started drinking, and the turkey's slightly burnt and she forgot that my boyfriend was coming as well so she didn't really make enough food.. neway, mark came late so we ate before he came. and my dad randomly drops a bomb on me.. cuz im under their insurance, he tells me that even if a family has one smoker and only one, the price goes up by 40 bucks a month, making them loose out on almost 500 bucks a year... and he said "and we're not too happy about that". i almost cried right then and there.. my mom made some drunk "yeah REAL bad news about healthcare for US" .. the way she talks when she's drunk makes me wanna kill myself.. and then mark came, we were all done eating but my parents remained at the table, silently, watching me watch mark eat. it was sooo uncomfortable. i wanted to shoot mself. then when i worked up the courage to go out and have a cigarette, i bawled. mark came out and held me.. my dad watched through the window then came out to try to make stupid jokes or pretend to strike up conversations.. i gave him the silent treatment for the entire 30 minutes that we stayed there before i tearfully made mark leave with me. i hope he feels bad cuz he made me feel bad.
ween. it was cool i guess. had jello shots with friends. waited for other friends to let me know if they were stopping buy but they never said nething.
it was okay.. being auctioned off. i mean, everyone in the crowd was drinking, i think they were there to see the models and listen to the music.. but no one really wanted to spend cash on hanging out with a model. i was sold for 45... more than most, but this one girl, i couldn't understand why, was sold for 100! i duno, she wasn't even dressed sexily and she was kinda a .. big girl. neway, boyfriend bought me so it was all good and we left right afterwards.
i got my makeup done professionally, and it looked good at first, but then i realized that i looked like a transvestite! mainly cuz my eyebrows were blown out of proportion, i had scary fake lashes on and an abundance of eyeshadow and blush.. not to mention she "reshaped" my lips.. and yeah.,. i looked like ronald mcdonald. but i had a goooood time.
most of the girls however were dressed.. really whorish. i mean, we all dressed sexily, but you could see soo many of the girls' asses... and boobs.. it was kinda annoying cuzi felt like i overdressed. how could that beeeeeee
im being auctioned off at Otto's bar in Dekalb tonight... all procedes go to charity, and u get to spend the night with me!! i know, i know, no one other than my boyfriend will be there.. but i encourage any chicagoians to come and take part in my degradation!
seriously tho, i dont want to be the only model who doesn't bring in mad cash for the MS society.
