Well so the evning has come..well right now its a sunny midday as I write this.. But tonight I will be Storytelling for the frist time in montsh mm years.. I'm both exsited and mm not nervous but lots of thoughts spinning in my head.. I hope my friends will have a great evning and enjoy what will come :)

..... I guess?

I think I have made the biggest thing in my whole life (at least the part I do remember since I opned the eyes here) that was to admit to others and not just to meself (as I have done all the time) that I am nae doing well, that I have a depression (wohoo so funny to write about that huh...not) So now my closest friends outside this realm of the net knows who things are and why I have been and still is reacting in serten ways etc.

This I hope was good and will now lead to better things.. it all happened a few days ago when I guess I finally dropped over the edge into some sort of abyss and hit the bottom. I just couldn't hold that depression inside, It was scary of course.. I hope the path that now lay before me will lead to better things..

When I lay in the bed

watching the walls,

feeling them coming closer.

I wonder.. Where is that door

that shimmer with its glory

and happiness?

Where is that door..

I wish to step throught

and never return here?

When I lay in the bed

watching the walls,

feeling them coming closer.

I wonder.. Where is that music

that tunes, that sparkling around

me?

I close my eyes and push that

strange stinging feeling down.

Will not show, will not hurt others...

The new space is now fixed but nothing is up yet. I will start me work on this strange codes and things I have heard been called html, it seem to be a modern way of magic.. some sort of arcane words and forms that make a text take a shape as ye commands it, the arcane of the cyberspace :)

I remember some of it but it was ages of ages ago when I first tryed them out, someone told me it was the new way within the space of cyber. I left it in it's stage of newly born, now it seem it has grown to fully respected forms of magic. Learn the Grimoarie and the cyberspace will shape before ye hand ..

Once the lock is gone and the door is open I will give ye entre.. and what will be put there? Well I will let me words and journys come alive there. I will share the path with ye here if ye wish to see them..

be well creatures and enjoy what we have, try to make this earth a better place..

well well.. isn't this a nice news?

Once I was talking about having a space, a place in the cyberspace to make me own and build a small realm for meself. Now I have it someone have offer me free space on their server and there I will start to play with html, pictures and put me stories up :)

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The iron is all around me, I can feel it in the ground and in the buildings. It itching and make me shiver.. feever?

I came to ye door this morning, when the sparov sat on the branch and sang for the raising sun. I reached for the door but.. what have they done? I pushed I pulled but the door wouldn't go up as before.

There was this little box next to the door, I couldn't touch it.. It was iron. There was numbers on it and strange little lights. I looked through the window on the door looked at the corridor I used to walk, taking the stairs up to where ye live.

Please wakeup, please come out to me.. to us. They have put up bars between us. Why have ye people done this? I will asked the sparov to sing for ye and ye friends. To tell the storie and to wake ye up. We need ye.. next time I nring cookies too..

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Ok this was the first lines from being away from writings. More will come be..