..... I guess?
I think I have made the biggest thing in my whole life (at least the part I do remember since I opned the eyes here) that was to admit to others and not just to meself (as I have done all the time) that I am nae doing well, that I have a depression (wohoo so funny to write about that huh...not) So now my closest friends outside this realm of the net knows who things are and why I have been and still is reacting in serten ways etc.
This I hope was good and will now lead to better things.. it all happened a few days ago when I guess I finally dropped over the edge into some sort of abyss and hit the bottom. I just couldn't hold that depression inside, It was scary of course.. I hope the path that now lay before me will lead to better things..
When I lay in
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I haven't been around for along time I guess (Watching the changes in the leafs tells me that then is not now) The spin of the world has gone to fast for me and I lost... Aye I have to admite I lost it somehow. That happy smile, that tingling and funny rushes.. its like a dream. But there are something good around too, since this I have now in the past few nights and days been able to talk about it and someone has found a intressted to help.. I hope its true help and not that typical learn and expose as humans usualy do.
I hope this enchanted space on-line has a wonderfull life and smiles...
I have started to ponder to take up some writtings again, and guess what of course that metal box died on me.. with all that text I have written ... Well well hope things will turn out better and
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