I'm back home in MS after my NYC trip...and I loved every second of it.  The city was a very awesome place, and I really enjoyed it.  There was so much to do and to see that I didn't get half of it done that we planned, but there's always more to do for next time.  The part that made the trip extra special was how I feel about her, though.  I'm pretty sure the phrase "head over heels" applies quite perfectly.  I know she's not at the same stage as I am, but she enjoys my company quite well and has started developing feelings along the same line...it'll just take some time.  I'm happy to give her all the time she needs, most of it is due to bad relationships in the past and feelings still tied up with them, but she also doesn't wish to rush into anything...and I am very happy that she is going to take her time.  I want this to be something that lasts, and taking time and being sure of things makes that far more possible.  I'm honestly hoping that she is the one I'll spend the rest of my life with...time will tell.  I'll try to keep updates going here on and off, but I'm still without regular computer access.  Until next time, have a wonderful day(s)! ;)

So, 88% Lancelot, 81% Arthur...I can deal with that.

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I'm sure that almost everyone has had the sensation of time passing faster or slower depending on the circumstances.  I'm certainly feeling just that sensation of late, especially the feeling that the days are creeping by ever so slowly.  I have a trip upcoming to see someone very special to me, and my departure date has taken forever to come around.  Rationally, I know that it really hasn't been that long in the course of things.  While I am there, though, I know the days will speed by much too rapidly.  I suppose that's the way things work, though...I simply will have to focus on making the absolute most of the time available on the trip.  Ah, what I wouldn't give for a bit of magic to twist time (oh, and space...yay teleportation!) to have more time to spend with her.

I must say that it's a bit odd for me to actually be posting things of any true personal feelings.  I've been online for half my life, but I was always hesitant about actual blog posts about me and my life.  I spent forever as a pretty private person, but I've been sharing more and more of myself lately.  I know it all ties in with the hours of talking on the phone with her, and it makes me happy.  Another thing that she's given me that's improving my life.  It's still taking time and effort, but it acutally feels good putting up posts on blogs and to twitter about how things are going.  I'm sure that trend will continue, so maybe I'll be even more active posting!

I'm still borrowing computer time for now, though I have picked up the gear needed to salvage my hard drive!  At least I'll be able to keep all my music and other info when I do nab a new laptop.  When that will be, well I'm not sure...but at least I have friends and family that let me feed my computer habit :D

Oh, and since I did update my display name to Tivare, I should mention my actual name is Ben (no, not short for Benjamin...short for Bentley!).  As far as Tivare, it's Quenya and references my middle name of Warren.  So I suppose I could use Tivare Sardello Tyr'tanote, which is my full name in Quenya.  I have her to thank for the full translation/conjugation :)

(and I know I haven't referenced who "she" is, but she knows just who she is...one day I may fill in everyone else...but it's easier for me to put up posts with that bit of obfuscation.  Still getting used to sharing personal emotional information via blogs :) )

Thought I'd throw up a short blog post to say hello to all.  I hope to be updating a bit more in-depth soon, but I currently have woefully limited online time.  Glad to have joined what seems to be a very nice community, with an intriguing theme!  I'll be checking in and hopefully uploading and updating more things, but first I have to have my own computer fixed!  Until then, I'll try to keep a check as often as I am able and update on occasion.